A Bad Person - Me!

When sometimes emotions cross the boundary of bring private and getting public, there certainly is some turbulence. Today morning I felt the same turbulence as soon as I entered the office. And it was as I looked into the Limelite. I never read this magazine (as it is the same with just any other magazine). But since the last time I had heard from Yatin to bring a copy of it to him, I thought of taking one and giving it to him at the end of the day. And I reached my worstation, surprisingly no one was on the floor. May be my bus had reached before all others' today morning! And then I logged into my workstation and looked into the usual servers status and stuff, which were found to be in sound health surprisingly, given that I had left them all by themselves the night before, when I wanted an early sleep and woke up late as well!

And after everything I glanced at the Limelite - Swati's eyes for a while were not the center of atraction in her snap - it was he hair! Of course! Anil's beautiful photographs have always grasped my admiration! (Yes, I was reading the magazine backwards ... I always do) Then as I went ahead I saw the centre page - almost dedicated to the Theatre Club - everyone was there ... some regular, some irregular ... some of no relevance. And that made me happy but suddenly I felt like being taken over, feeling utterly bad for my absence. I browsed over the entire thing again. No - not even mention of my name. I just looked on into the page - remembering all the hardships I had done to write everything, make people practice ... once on the campus and once outside. And then I felt bad - so bad I could not fight the salty waters. They came - they always come.

Sometimes its so good to just be ignorant of things - in this case if I would not have seen it all by myself - I would never have felt a thing. But now that I have seen I feel bad - not for the fact that I was not mentioned. For the fact that all those people who have come so close in these days and have become such good acquaintances got mentioned - and I was not happy with it! May be I am being taken over by the bad person in me. Eyes got moistened all the day repeatedly, even when I did not want it!

Song: I dont want to say goodbye